20 seconds…

The trials the tribulations, the challenges and opportunities, you’ll probably notice the really big occasions hung finely balanced on the feather edge of uncertainty.When I look back at these times in my life, I see that this level of surrender, this level of commitment, required something special: “20 seconds of insane courage”…

Today I spoke at a MOPS (Mothers of Pre-Schoolers) group about courage, not being afraid to advocate for your children when needed, listening to their needs and learning styles, and being willing to do the very things you most fear when needed.

I realise that this quote sums up perfectly how I feel about my decision to homeschool.

It truly was 20 seconds of insane courage… because if I’d thought about it too long… I’m not sure I could have done it…

Still there are days I feel completely and utterly out of my depth, wishing this was a dream I could wake up from.

Some days I feel grief at the thought that all of my children will probably never be in the same school together. I never in my wildest dreams imagined anything other.

Today I got school photos forms for just my daughter and from somewhere inside of me welled up a great sadness I haven’t felt in weeks. Make no mistake… I see something great happening… but this is not what I imagined my life to be…

Courage does not come without pain.

Courage does not come without doubts.

Courage does not come without fear.

Courage does not come without heartache.

Courage chooses to push past the reality of what is.

"Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear." ~Ambrose Redmoon

About purplecamels

I'm a slightly crazy mother of 3, wife of 1, who loves adding colour to everything, being creative, and spending time with people. I am very grateful God is in control, though sometimes I wish He'd give a little more notice when He's got plans for my life!
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One Response to 20 seconds…

  1. You are so right. Courage comes with a whole lot of other stuff.

    And 20 seconds of insane courage can change everything…

    xxx thanks for sharing

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