Today I spoke at a MOPS (Mothers of Pre-Schoolers) group about courage, not being afraid to advocate for your children when needed, listening to their needs and learning styles, and being willing to do the very things you most fear when needed.
I realise that this quote sums up perfectly how I feel about my decision to homeschool.
It truly was 20 seconds of insane courage… because if I’d thought about it too long… I’m not sure I could have done it…
Still there are days I feel completely and utterly out of my depth, wishing this was a dream I could wake up from.
Some days I feel grief at the thought that all of my children will probably never be in the same school together. I never in my wildest dreams imagined anything other.
Today I got school photos forms for just my daughter and from somewhere inside of me welled up a great sadness I haven’t felt in weeks. Make no mistake… I see something great happening… but this is not what I imagined my life to be…
Courage does not come without pain.
Courage does not come without doubts.
Courage does not come without fear.
Courage does not come without heartache.
Courage chooses to push past the reality of what is.